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I wish I could tell everyone
all the things I think I know.

There's no way I could ever explain
what I am aware of:
It's all based on why
I am aware of it.

That's not something
that you can tell anyone
with any words.

I made you a temple,
you made me cry.

No longer do I worship
at your altar,
hungry for some spare blessing
you might drop to me
like a scrap or a bone to a dog.

I deserve
to live in that house too,
to have my own throne
standing right next to yours.

I deserve
to be recognized
for what I bring,
what I do,
what I am.

I deserve
to be loved entirely
just like I loved you.

Find some other desperate fool
to be your help-meat:
I will only give
what will be recieved.

If only they knew
what I'd seen today,
they would never believe it
even if I showed them.

If there was any way
to express
the magic I've experienced,
the whole world
would have already been filled,
because I know
this has always been.

Again and again we try to say
what is beyond saying,
to do what is impossible:
Just shadows
of the beautiful infinite.

It was never a futile effort
to try,
because when they see it themselves,
finally,
they will then know
what it was
we were going on about!

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If there were a way
to say how I feel
I would say it
and be done
with all of my speaking.

If there were speach
to say what I am,
I would have used it
and taken my leave.

If there were art
to express my emotion,
my devotion,
my feelings,
the truth of my soul,
I would have done it,
created and penned it,
made it reality
to show everyone.

But no,
there is nothing
that expresses this thing,
this truth,
this joy,
this pain,
this love,
this pure and tainted bliss.

All I can do
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I'm part of you,
just look at yourself.

I'm in your heart,
I'm always walking with you,
I'm always with you.

I came from the beginning,
a place you too know well,
the center of every being,
that's where we got together.

I'm part of you,
just feel yourself.

I'm inside that spark,
that one eternal moment,
forever I burn with you.

I live in that eternity
sitting with you on a lotus,
locked in an endless, perfect kiss,
that's where our spirits exist.

I'm part of you,
just remember yourself.

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